I have pretended that I don't care..I have taken things slow...I have done everything in between. I don't get it! Why is this happening to me?? What is wrong with me? I used to think that I was beautiful and smart and even a worthwhile person. But I now know that I must be ugly, stupid, and completely worthless, I really would like to know what is wrong with me????

I shouldn't be angry
I should just be happy everyone tells me
Why should I be happy with something that I don't have?
All I hear is how understanding I should be..I shouldn't be anything!
I am sick of people telling me what I should have done, what I could have done, what I should do, what I could do!
Let me be me, let me feel how I want, SHOULDN'T I be entitled to at least that much?
Why am I always being ridiculed for being sad about things I think I have a right to be sad about?

I wanted to be with you, and it kills me to leave you alone.
But where were you when I needed you? , I WAS ALONE.
I have put so much into being you and me; you took it all and left me with nothing.
Why has it come to this? Why did we let it get here?

But now I've seen you with her. I can see you are happy.
And I'm glad you are.
I'm not happy though with the way things are but I have to stop this now.
If its not you, it will never be you no matter how much I obsessed about it.
But if just in case you're for me, you've always been, you'll always be no matter how often I set you free...
I hope no one does to you what you have done to me.
Leave you cold, heartbroken and lonely.