Baker wannabe!

I started my new blog about cooking, baking, and making desserts.

I have collected and kept a lot of delicious dessert recipes so I plan to share them. And to rant about how I wish I was better at making desserts look pretty.



This blog is a collection of words, photographs and recipes from people who inspire me or from my own notebooks. A place for me to share my love for food --- especially desserts and chocolates!

See You there!

A New Chapter Unfolds

How To Tell If Your Boss Is A Narcissist

Need to know how to tell if your boss is a narcissist? It’s not hard to tell if you’re boss is a narcissist. Narcissists are self-centered, demanding, self-aggrandizing, and present an attitude of entitlement. If you do not give your narcissistic boss the attention he deserves, he may become hostile, sulky, or verbally abusive. You can tell your boss is a narcissistic if he displays most of these qualities on a day-to-day basis.

1. He focuses on himself, rather than the company. You can tell your boss is a narcissist if he focuses on his personal goals and ambitions rather than the advancement of his company and workers.
2. He always has to be right. To tell if your boss is a narcissist, observe how he responds to dissenting opinions. Most supervisors will be willing to listen to constructive criticism, but a narcissistic boss will take offense to any opinion that differs from his own.
3. He lies and bends the rules. If your boss is a narcissist, he probably believes that the rules don’t apply to him. He may lie to you, your co-workers, and his supervisors to advance his own agenda and to evade responsibility for his actions.
4. He isn’t empathetic. Narcissists show little compassion for others. If your boss is a narcissist, he will show little understanding if you ask for a day off to take care of a sick family member or if you’re five minutes late for work due to a traffic jam.
5. He acts paranoid. Paranoia is a common trait in narcissistic persons. Most likely, your boss is a narcissist if you catch him spying on his employees, making outlandish accusations, or accusing workers of trying to plot against him.
   

wala lang to

ano kaya nararamdaman mo sa tuwing umiiyak ako? ano kaya naiisip mong dahilan kung bakit ako nalulungkot? naiisip mo pa kaya na ikaw yung iniiyakan ko? naiisip mo ba na namimimiss na kita? hindi lang yung simpleng wala lang miss lang kita..kundi yung parang sa sobrang tagal nating hindi naguusap, nagbabonding...yung tipong isipin ko lang yung dati...umiiyak ako kase wala na yun? yung iiyak ako kase alam ko hindi na maibabalik yung panahon na yun? yung kahit anong gawin ko...magkaiba na mundo naten..kaya wala na talaga akong magagawa kundi tanggapin yung gusto ni Lord na mangyare...?

iniisip mo siguro, napakaiyakin ko naman...napakababaw...pero sana maisip mo na hindi lang dahil sa kababawan o pagkamaiyakin ko lang to...sana maisip mo yung lalim ng pinagsamahan natin...yung lalim ng kung anong nararamdaman ko para sa iyo...

hindi ako nabubuhay sa nakaraan. samakatuwid masaya ako sa kinatatayuan ko ngayon..ngunit kahit anong gawin nila hindi nila mapantayan yung halaga mo sa buhay ko..hindi nila magawang ibalik yung nawalang bahagi sa buhay ko..kaya nagmimistulang malungkot ako. sana wag mong isipin na pinagpipilitan ko lahat ng ito. sinasabi ko lang yung nararamdaman ko...malungkot ako kase namimiss kita. yun lang. mababaw na kung mababaw...wala naren akong pakialam sa isipin ng iba. puso ko to eh. ramdam niya kung anong gusto niyang maramdaman.

Im feeling sad... So sad all I want to do is cry...

Love. Is that what I crave?
If it is, then why can't I find it?
Hate. Does that mean anger?
If it does, then why do I feel hollow?
Pain. Does that mean suffering?
If it does, then why does it feel comforting?
Memories. Are they not images of the past?
If they are, why is there only shadows?
Smiles. Does that mean happiness?
If it does, then why does it hurt?
Life. What does it mean?
Should it mean any of these things?
If it doesn't, then why are they there?

Massive Earthquake Strikes Chile

My heart goes out to all those impacted by the earthquake and I send my best wishes and prayers to my readers in Chile and all those suffering from the devastation in Chile and facing the tsunami threat around the Pacific, including all my readers in eastern Australia.

I am a work in progress

Lubos man akong nasaktan sa mga desisyong aking pinanindigan, ngayo’y itinuturing ko na lamang isang hampas sa ulo ang nangyaring kabalintunaan. Isang hampas na talaga namang nagpagitla sa akin ng ilang buwan. Binulag ng pagmamahal na dapat ay sa aking sarili muna’y pinaramdam. Ako’y tatayo mula sa pagkalugmok. Mamahalin ang sarili at kakalimutan ang pag-ibig na minsa’y muntik ng lamunin ang aking kahinaan. Ako’y mamamahinga, puso ko’y ikukubli sa mapagsamantala. Kaya ko na ‘to, gising na sa wakas ang minsa’y isang loka-loka.

This time I’m not only moving on, this time I’ll keep moving forward, because I have to, because I had enough, because I am torn, because I am hurt, because I loved, because I am whole, because I fight for myself, because I seek for what’s right, because I deserve better, because I should be taken care of, because I am not a trash, because I should let go and set free of one thing that has been unyielding me. There’s nothing wrong in being bitter, remember, medicines usually taste bitter but it makes you well. Maraming lumipas na magagandang pagkakataon ang aking naitapon, nai-kahon at hindi na iyon maibabalik pang muli ng panahon. Sarili ko muna’y gugugulin ng pansin, ibabalik tiwala’t respeto sa sarili na nawala sa akin. Walang oras na ‘di pagyayamanin, lahat ng makapagpapabuti’y akin ng yayakapin. I don’t deserve blab-mouthing and big talking. I’m über-exhausted, for such events that became a cycle – and I need to break-free.

I just have to remind myself that I’m not half waiting to be made whole.

Wag ka ng mag-isip at bigyan ng dahilan ang isip mo para isipin siya. Masaya ang buhay, kaya mabuhay ka ng masaya.

More Lessons Learned

I’ve learned that when you love never stick only to what your heart feels. Remember that sometimes using your brain is a necessity. Next, never use your eyes to cry for the person who hurt you. Instead, use it to search for the right one. Lastly, don’t be scared breaking up. Keeping a relationship without love is just a waste of time. Take note: love the one who will fight for you and bravely face each and every consequence. Someone whom you can call “MINE” rather than “IDEAL”.

People get hurt with love because they try to deny its existence or its absence. Don’t make things complicated for it’s hard to find an answer. If you love someone, build up a relationship, wherein you’ll both find true happiness. If you know love has faded, just let go and don’t dream as if there’s still chance for love to come back. Because the more you deny what’s inside your heart, the more pain you are trying to catch.

Bakit kaya pagdating sa love yung kabaligtaran mo ang napupunta sa’yo? Bakit yung matino napupunta sa bad? Bakit yung palaging bigo napupunta sa naglalaro? Bakit yung mabait napupunta sa pasaway? Kaya pala ganun kasi, pag ibinigay sa’yo ang katulad mo, hindi ka matututo magbago para sa isang tao. Hindi mo malalaman ang mali sa’yo. At pag walang nagbago sa’yo, hindi mo malalaman kung nagmahal ka nga ng totoo.

We must learn to trust the perfect time so that we may discover that all the pain found in waiting has a magnificent and awesome purpose. In God’s time I know I’ll fall in love for the right person. When that time comes, love will be worth the wait, the tears and the pain. Then I’ll forget that I ever waited because somewhere between heartaches and waiting, comes another chance to be found by someone who can show me that I don’t deserve to be just an option but the only choice.

Food Thoughts

eat-as-much-as-you-want-whenever-you-want -->
eat-in-moderation -->
eat-only-because-you-have-to -->
skip-meals-and-eat-only-if-absolutely-necessary -->
eat-only-because-you-have-to -->
eat-in-moderation -->
eat-as-much-as-you-want-whenever-you-want --> and so on...

Realization (about love ulit. sorry senti lang!)

Ako ay isang babaeng punong-puno ng pagmamahal pero walang nagmamahal

(me ganun?? Drama naman. Hehe =P).

Ang buhay ko’y tunay na nakakaboring parang isang walang saysay na istorya. Walang ka kwenta-kwenta pero marami akong kaibigan na nagpaalakas ng loob ko at nagbibigay ng mga dahilan para ako ay maging masaya. Sila yung mga taong nagpaparamdam sakin kung ganu nila ko kailangan, kung gaano ako ka importante sa kanila.

“Everything happens for a reason” yan ang pinaka motto ko sa buhay ngayon. I used to be a person who always thinks positive.And a person who would never lie.But I realized, All these years I’m living three fourths of my life in total bogus. Minsan nga hindi ko na alam kung alin ang tunay at totoo. Dahil ang laging sinasabi sakin ng ibang tao na “all that shine is real”. Yan! Yan! Yan ang pagkakaalam ko dati, hanggang sa isang araw habang ako’y nakikipaglaban sa damdamin ko. Oo, isa akong pretender pero hindi basta bastang pretender dahil I am a great pretender (hahaha!). madalas makikita ako ng mga kaibigan ko na laging masaya. Iniisip nila na wala akong problema pero hindi nila alam na napakarami kong problema sa buhay. Isa na dyan ay yung problema ko sa pag-ibig. Pakiramdam ko ni minsan di ko pa naranasang mahalin ako kung anu ako at kung sino ako. all I want to do is to sit beside someone I love, someone I trust my life completely. Bakit nga ba ang hirap para sakin na matagpuan yun? Yun bang mga bagay na yon eh nangyayari lang sa pelikula? Hindi ko gusto ang isang magandang lalaki. Ang gusto ko ay yung lalaking totoong mahal ako. Pero dapat mahal ko din. Isang tao na may paninindigan at dignidad sa buhay. Isang tao na nakikita ang kabutihan at kagandahan ng isang tao sa likod ng pisikal na kaanyuan nito. Isang tao na handang gawin ang lahat para mabuhay at para matupad ang lahat ng kanyang mga pangarap sa buhay. One who’ll keep quiet when I’m mad, and after that will keep me in his arms and hug me tight, kiss all my tears away.Isang tao na magsasabi sakin kung anu ang tama at kung anu ang mali. Isang tao na hindi natatakot sakin kundi takot na mawala ako sa kanya. Isang tao na mamahalin lahat ng kagandahan at kapangitan ko. Someone that who will love me as me, nothing more nothing less.

Well, hindi naman talaga walang nagmamahal sakin. meron naman. pero ako lang siguro talaga ang problema. Sabi ko nga, hopeless romantic ako. Gusto ko may spark. may kilig. may ngiti di lang sa labi, dapat abot hanggang puso ko. At yun marahil ang hinahanap ko. Isang tao lang naman ang nakakagawa nun. haay. balik na naman ang kwento sa kanya. bakit nga ba ganun? lagi na lang bang iikot ang mundo ko sa kanya. ilang beses ko na ngang tinanong sarili ko kung ano ba pinakain nya sakin at ganito na lang kung alagaan ko yung nararamdaman ko sa kanya. It's not that I cant move on. maybe i just dont want to. Maybe it has got to do with the promise I made: He will be the last guy I'll love. Pero promises are made to be broken naman di ba? bakit di ko ma break???

Ganun pa man, malungkot man ako minsan, nagpapasalamat pa din ako dahil sa kanya, natuto akong magmahal ng buong puso. Natuto akong tanggapin ang lahat ng bagay masama man ito o mabuti. Natuto akong magpatawad. Wala man sya ngayon sa piling ko Physically but in my heart there is always a place for him where he should be. dito sa puso ko mananatili ang mga masasayang alaala na kasama pa ko sya. =)



God is really good, All the time.

My Pampanga to Subic trip 2010

This is actually My first time to visit these places.

First stop was San Guillermo Parish Church in Bacolor,Pampanga. It is one of the oldest and largest churches in the philippines. Only half of the original facade of the church can be seen today due to the eruption of Mount Pinatubo in 1991 which half-buried the church. It was really an interesting site! Stayed there for an hour, enough to take pictures.

Next was Adventure Beach in Subic Bay where I had lunch (Yummy!) . After lunch, I checked out Camayan Beach resort, which is actually just beside it (And just beside Ocean Adventure, Can you imagine!). Strolled and took some pictures after pictures. Fine, white sand! (but not as white in boracay, I think. never been there. i'll go check it out next time.harhar!) It was very refreshing. relaxing. Just what i needed!

And Next of course was Ocean adventure. First in the list of "activities" was Walk on the Wild Side. Walk on the Wild Side is Ocean Adventure’s newest animal show, this time featuring wildlife of the forest. The show begins with a demonstration by the local indigenous Aetas and their ingenious use of one simple plant, bamboo. They demonstrate their amazing ability to build and light a fire without matches, and to create a variety of utensils and tools from bamboo. Walk on the Wild Side then transports guests into the forest at night, where we explore the sights of sounds of the deep dark forest. On our “walk” we meet a variety of birds, bats, mammals, and reptiles. Then, next was the Dolphin and Whale Presentation. Next was Discovery Aquarium, which looks like Ocean Park in Manila but smaller. Next was Rap, Jump, and Roll.Rap, Jump, and Roll is a variety show that has some very creative ways of teaching kids about the marine environment and the animals that live in it. With a backdrop of a colorful coral reef 3-D wall, the show features high flying trampoline performers displaying the patterns and colors of reef fishes, plus the Ocean Adventure mascots. Through trampoline antics, rap, comedy, and dance we explore a variety of environmental and animal-related subjects with the message to take action in small ways. And lastly, the Sea Lion Marine Patrol Show. I forgot the SeaLion's name but it was very entertaining and delightful show, perfect for all ages.

I've decided to come back soon and see Zoobic Safari! Yey!

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