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Sunday, August 30, 2009

I failed not to think of Him especially on this day.

Today is his Birthday...

How nice it is to spend this special day with him,huh? but everything has changed now. And all I could do is to wish him all the best things in life, pray for him, even without him knowing...

I just really hope that he's happy...

Now there's so much to write but I can't do it all at once.







Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Busy...

Addicted to Poker!

No. not the real one. no real money. no real chips.

Texas Hold'em Poker from Facebook is what Im referring to. hehehe.

I don't have anything to blog today. So I thought of sharing this bit of info. very interesting right? me, gambling??? well, at least not for real!

that's all folks! will be playing again! Wish me luck. LOL!








Sunday, August 23, 2009

I Love You, Goodbye

I said Goodbye to him for the Nth time...

I always have the answer to any questions that someone will asked me, but I cant find the right answer to his one simple question.

"why are you saying goodbye, Jing?"

He sent me a text quote saying : If you love what you're doing, you'll never get bored. same with... If you love that someone, you'll never get tired.

I replied,: I am tired. But it doesn't necessarily mean I don't love you...


What was he thinking when he forwarded me that message??? Lalo nyang ginugulo ang isip ko.

Leche.

A friend forwarded me this message and this hit me so hard:



U know wats sad bout love?

its wen u happen 2 know dat ders jst no hope 4 u bein 2gder yet u stil pray 2 make it work...
its wen ur mind says let go but ur heart says hold on...
its wen u drim of dat person almost evry nyt only 2 wake up in d morning wid tirs in ur eyes...
nd most of ol its wen no mater how u try 2 4get dat person u jst cnt...
coz of d fact dat u love dat person nd u just dnt know y...


So true, Right? well, for me it is... parang ako na rin nga ang sumulat ng quote nato. coz this is exactly what was happening to me!


Now, going back to his question why am i saying goodbye? im not really sure why. Maybe because I don't want us to be just friends. I realize I can't settle for anything but the best. I thought I could still be a part of him if I remain by his side. Be there whenever he needs me, that sort of thing. When I convinced myself to settle for friendship with him, I didn't realize I'd get more than what I was ready to cope. My feelings always get in the way. I'm not sure who to blame. I'm so confused I don't want to think of Him anymore. But how? kung siya lang naman lagi ang laman ng isip ko? Magmura man ako ng ilang beses, di pa rin mawala ang kaguluhan sa isipan ko. Isipin ko man lahat ng nangyari samin at ginawa niya sakin, di ko pa rin magawang magalit. I just love him to the highest level! Punyeta!

I've been trying so hard to avoid him. I no longer reply to his texts, I diverted all my incoming calls to a non-working number, and now, I am planning to change my number. that also, is for the Nth time. And these things hurt me so much. A bigtime sacrifice.

Sana lang din tigilan na lang niya ako, if he doesn't intend to get back with me. If only he'll realize how miserable I am to know that I can touch Him, yet I can't own Him. If only I can say these things to Him. If only I am brave enough...

I just hope that everything turns out fine. Anyway, I always believe that greater things are yet to come.

I Love You and only God knows how much and until when, but for now, For my sanity... Goodbye.







Tuesday, August 18, 2009

I'm addicted to Facebook




Ok, there, I've admitted it.

I have always thought that addiction referred to drugs, alcohol, and other vices that you couldn’t help but take advantage of, even while knowing the dangers involved therein. But I never once thought that something that in my mind should just be casual/once-in-a-while/when-I-have-a-free-moment-and-the-boss-isn’t-looking kind of fun could be so frustratingly addictive.

I’m always hearing about the renowned Facebook, the “coolest” thing to hit the Web since, well, since the last cool thing. I never felt the slightest desire to join, because I already use friendster, My Blogs (a lot) which takes up a significant amount of my time as it is; so I thought putting my profile on Facebook as well would totally overexpose me, and overexposure is the last thing I’m looking for. lol.

I have often received e-mails from friends or acquaintances inviting me to join Facebook. In order to see members’ detailed profiles, members’ pictures, or see details of an event I’ve gotten invited to, I’d have to be a member of Facebook. So I finally joined. It was a very spontaneous decision that I may live to regret, because as of the morning after joining, I already felt slightly addicted. I never thought that would happen to me and certainly not within hours of joining, but there it is.

By morning I started getting friend invites from members who saw that I had joined, but I can honestly say I don’t recall where I even knew some of these “friends” from or even what they looked like, until I peeked at their photos.

Being someone’s friend on Facebook seems to have many different connotations. A friend can be someone you actually spend time with and talk to on the phone “off the ’Net,” a friend can be someone you see every couple of weeks and say hello to in passing, or a friend can be someone you see at a party once a year. There seems to be no distinction on Facebook between best friend, good friend, or mild acquaintance. Everyone in your network seems to be your new BFF (best friend forever).

Word around town (from Facebook members) is that if you’re not on Facebook, then you are not in the know, and you might be missing out on events and friendships.


Well, what can I say? A week and a half later and I'm officially over Friendster (where I loved finding people to add to my friends list) and I'm on Facebook all of the time. To send a cyber drink to a friend or throw a cow at someone (yes, really) I love or create lists of my favorite things. Answer Quizzes. Do Street Racing. Be part of a Mafia Family. Join a Sorority. Have your own Farm. Make your Pet a Star. Play Poker. It's so much fun! So, if you are on Facebook and want to be friends, look me up and maybe I'll throw a cow at you. Or send you a fruity drink. Or play poker with me or beat me in a race (if you can.lol) If you aren't on there, what are you waiting for?






Sunday, August 16, 2009

My LSS for months now!









Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Vision?

I'm getting married and so excited about it!


Oh I know my friends will be shocked, literally, after reading the first line. And how I love to see their faces! Hahaha!

For the record, I am not getting married! No, not yet.

I had a dream, though. And in my dream I was walking down the aisle to meet my groom.

Unfortunately, I didn't see his face.

Geez!

I seldom dream. And when I do, they happen. Creepy, but true. So sometimes, I hate dreams.

Except, of course, if it's a good one! like this one. Keep the faith, Nene! LOL!





Saturday, August 8, 2009

Mirror





I've been where you are, and God, I know how painful it exactly felt.

I know sweet words aren't really enough to at least ease the pain, but it really does help.

A bit, though.

You asked me if you had a choice.

I told you to either cling to that damn hope of you two getting back together or just move on with your life and deal with the fact that it's just up to there.

You smiled and it was obvious that you opted the first one I suggested.

But Honestly, you really don't have a choice but to let go.

It's bleak, I know, but I guess you just have to deal with reality.

It's really foolish to keep hoping that there's another chance, cause we all know how clear it is that this is really where it's at.

I know you are much willing to take the risk and even if you'd have to take all the shots, I know you'd take them wholeheartedly.

Because above all your shortcomings and all else, you want him back.

Period.

But he needs time and space for himself.

And you can't force that.

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Just Numbers? Nah!




48 messages in Facebook (Wallposts and Inbox)

21 messages in Friendster (Wallposts and Inbox)

10 messages in Yahoo email

17 offline and online messages in YM

30 text messages

An awesome date with a great guy

Great Family, Great Friends

One Loving God

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Total: 1 Strong Woman and 31 years of Colorful Life!