now i’m scared, doubting what i did. nagpapakatanga ba ako?

i don’t want to live my life regretting that i didn’t try my best to fix things between us. or if not to fix things, then to end them properly.

A Repost

I used to think that I was still a child but so many things push me to mature, push me to age, push me to be an adult. I used to feel like an in-between, not knowing whether I am a child or a woman. I'd like to think that for now, I am who I want myself to be...


I can be what you want to see but I refuse to be dictated on how I should be.


i aspire to be someone. I want to be seen and to be heard and be told that I count. I want to become known for being somebody and for doing something. Someday, I know I'll be able to earn that for myself.

Maybe tomorrow, or later today, who knows? But I know it will happen.

I will make it happen...

I had stuff I wanted to mention but of course now that I am typing stuff, I can't remember any of it!

Ah well, another time perhaps.

Goodnight!

Some people just can't let go.
Some people just cant accept the fact that there's nothing left to hold onto.

I am not one of them.

As I've learned in many painful ways that I wont be helping myself if I continue to cling to something or someone that is no longer there or doesn't want to be there with me anymore...

Pray and Forgive

Love your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you. (Matthew 5:44)

Have you ever watched a movie about a superhero and wondered how they lived through all those adventures? They get shot at, blown up, fall from twenty stories, and still finish without a scratch. But you don’t have to be Superman to love your enemies. It really is possible for an ordinary human being to do it.

So how can we do it? With a dose of reality and a lot of divine grace.

Unlike superheroes, we don’t heal so easily. That’s the dose of reality. We may even want to forgive someone, but their actions have left scars on our hearts, and those scars don’t go away by themselves. We may have been devastated by a heartbreaking separation, the loss of a job, or a loved one’s untimely death. Perhaps we were abused, rejected, or betrayed by someone we trusted. To one degree or another, we all carry these kinds of wounds.

We may have resigned ourselves to carrying these wounds around, and we may even think they are just part of life. But the truth is, these scars can block our ability to love as Jesus asks us to. And here is where the divine grace comes in. If something is holding us back, Jesus wants to set us free from it, whether it happened last week or twenty years ago.

How can you begin to experience Jesus’ healing power in these painful areas of your life? Try sitting quietly in prayer, imagining him sitting next to you. Tell him about what may be hurting you. Be open and honest, and tell him why you feel the way you do. Look into his eyes, and see the love and compassion there. Then, listen in your heart. You may sense Jesus comforting you or guiding you or taking away the pain from the past. Don’t worry if you think it’s just your imagination. That’s how God works sometimes. He will use anything to restore you and make you whole!

“Lord, I bring my wounds to you, knowing that by your wounds you have set me free. I want to be an instrument of your peace, so help me first to pardon those who have hurt me.”

Deuteronomy 26:16-19; Psalm 119:1-2,4-5,7-8