Oh Well...

surprise! surprise! may ex-bf,Patrick, texted me and said Hi.

after almost 3 months, ngayon lang uli kami nagkausap. He said, his gf just broke up with him after a month of being together. Im not sure what to feel or what to say about their breakup so I just listened.

Ang sarap naman sa pakiramdam na your ex was confiding on you. And of cors, i also have my share of kwento!

I told him about Yam. I ended whatever we have ngapala-- Me and Yam, I mean. When we talked last Saturday, i told him what we have wont work. I dont want him to expect. I want him to have a life there in the states. etc. etc. Again, he doesnt approved but he understood. Uuwi pa din daw siya ng december. haay!

quote for the day

My life has no purpose, no direction, no aim, no meaning, and yet I'm happy. I can't figure it out. What am I doing right? --- Charles Schulz

Weird!

I was updating my Friendster account when i happen to see an Ad.

Friendster promoting Facebook!

What's up with that, huh?!

The Ying to my Yang

I am not looking for someone who complete me. I am complete in and of myself. I am looking for someone who complement me, whose dreams and values and ideas of living jive with mine, but not necessarily mirror them.

The catch here is that before I find that someone, I have to know myself. My quirks and needs, my dreams and desires, my sense of identity and purpose in this world. That special someone, whoever he is, has to know himself as well, and be open and honest and comfortable with his emotions.

Then, together, we can find out how our lives fit together, strengthening and supporting each other while growing to reach mutual heights of love, passion, and fulfillment.

moving on...

Nakakapanghinayang magdelete ng posts... Pero kailangan eh. Parte ng tinatawag na "moving on".

Katatapos ko lang linisin tong blog site ko at handa na akong magsimula ulit.

panibagong yugto at panibagong pahina ng aking buhay...

Sino Ba Si Yam?

"How did you know
I needed someone like you in my life
That there is an empty space in my heart
You came at the right time in my life"

... sino ba namang hindi makakakilala sa linyang yan di ba? at sino ba namang magsasabing magagamit ko pala yang kantang yan! hachu! Ganyan ko ilalarawan si Yam...

"I remembered so well
The day that you came into my life
You asked for my name
You had the most beautiful smile "



Wrong sent. ganun nagumpisa ang storya namin.
Sino rin magsasabing magkakaron pala ako ng ganito diba??
Anyway, Di sya naniwala. tinawagan nya ko.
nalaman nyang hindi nga ako yung kumpare
na gusto sana nyang makausap.
Tinanong nya ko kung 3G daw ba phone ko.
sabi ko OO. binabaan ako ng telepono!!!
Lech! kako sa isip ko. pero wala pang isang minuto,
nagring na uli phone ko.
Siya ulit.
VideoCall!
And the rest is history...


"My life has started to change
When i wake up each day feeling alright
With you right by my side
Makes me feel things will work out just fine"


Masyado pa kong nageemote dahil sa nangyari samin ng ex ko
nung dumating si Yam sa buhay ko.
Di pa ko ready sa isang relasyong may commitment.
Hindi OK sa kanya pero tanggap nya.
Masaya namin kami. walang commitment. walang hassle.
Sabi nya, isang araw magigising na lang daw ako
na mahal ko na siya.
Confident ang loko! hehehe!
Magsimula nung nakilala ko si Yam,
nakalimutan ko na lahat ng problema ko sa puso.
Nawala ang galit. Nawala ang panghihinayang.
Tinulungan niya akong maibalik ang dating Ako.


"I'll never forget
How you brought the sun to shine in my life
And took all the worries and fears that I had
I guess what I'm really trying to say
It's not everyday that someone like you comes my way
No words can express how much ...I'm thankful to you"

Sinadya kong iedit ang last line.
supposed to be, No words can express how much I Love You.
Di pa ko dumarating dun sa point
na masasabi kong mahal ko na siya.
Masaya ako, OO. pero hindi yun sapat.
Hindi lang siya ang lolokohin ko, pati sarili ko.
Kaaalis lang niya pabalik ng US.
natanggap na siya sa inapplyan nyang law firm dun.
He asked me to go there with him.
He asked me to marry him.
i declined both.
haba ng hair ko no? hehehe...
He said he'll be back by december,
At sana magbago daw sagot ko.

Any girl would want to have Yam as BF.
gwapo. mayaman. lawyer.
Any girl would want him as her husband.
Any girl would want to have him...but Me.
or maybe not yet. not now.

We still talk everyday.
we chat.
see each other thru webcam.
We still treat each other as bf-gf minus the commitment.

Maybe its time for me to use the line:

Its not You,Yam. its me... LOL!

Sickly Me

that tired feeling from yesterday ended up being the start of a fever. am feeling really crappy today. have a headache and fever, and my body aches all over. no work for me today.