hmmm...

meron na namang gumamit ng article ko without asking my permission. but in fairness they didnt delete my name. pampalubag loob, credit is still mine. but just the same, without permission is without permission!

haay… sabagay at fault ako coz lam ko naman everyone and everybody using net can just copy-paste anything and everything they want. just hope the people behind the www.myagentofvalue.com would be kind enough to reply my email the soonest time possible.

you may visit the site and check my article if you want. it was posted april of this year. but i wrote that years ago for the company newsletter of globe telecom.

aside from yahoo.com and authorsden.com , you can also search me, i mean my works, pala thru bengisu.net search engine. now ko lang nalaman tong search engine na to.

anyway, stay happy everyone!

Can't stop writing!

I can’t stop writing; my hand is a lava flow,

There are those who are trying to stop me,

For reasons I don’t know,

But still I pick up a pen and write from my heart.

So what if I don’t have proper grammar,

Isn’t poetry meant to come from the soul?

When I write, it is a river racing,

The current gushing with untamed emotion.

When I write, I don’t think, I feel,

Express myself in terms that I understand.

I don’t write for you, I write for me,

Words that sometimes beg for love and understanding,

This is called dealing with this bitch

Of a world where people fight

But I don’t need to fight, coz in my reality,

That consists of a notebook full of love poetry,

That consists of a person whose love makes the day shine in harmony,

I am at the top of the mountain peak,

No dark clouds in the horizon.

I can’t stop writing, because it is my life,

And I’ll write HOW I want because that is

What free style - not to mention, freedom of speech

Is all about.

Perhaps without tears

All seems strangely quiet to her,

As if the world is silently floating by,

Unreal and dreamlike.

Her world isn’t a dreamland though.

Her dream has turned out to be just that—a dream.

She is supposed to be over this by now.

That is what she tells herself.

She isn’t though.

Memories flood back into her mind.

Memories of what use to be and isn’t any more.

She will never be able to look at him like that anymore.

A special smile or tender gaze will never be shared again.

There are other regrets.

Yes, so many regret.

Why hadn’t she taken advantage of more opportunities

To let him know how special he was?

How much she cared?

She can’t anymore.

That is why the tears are streaming down her face.

Perhaps the tears are a little selfish.

She’s crying because she’s hurt,

Because she cant be with the man that meant so much to her.

She has to get through this.

She knows she will.

She is working through it.

Yesterday hadn’t ended this way.

Perhaps tomorrow will end without the tears.

endure!

Sometimes life hits with many trials and challenges. What does a person do? Trials come to make you strong, but in the midst of going through most of us can’t see that. One never sees the purpose of a process in the midst of the process, but it is in hindsight that the individual can look back and be thankful for the process. So what to do in the midst of life’s many trials and challenges, endure. There is a saying that the race is not for the swift and the strong, but those who endure to the end. I believe it, ask anyone who has had any measure of success in their lives. We can all start out strong and fast, but reaching the end is determined by our ability to endure. So endure…

My best wasnt good enough…

I am….

I am but a woman

Trying, but often failing

To be the best that I can be

In this crazy, mixed-up

Existence we call Life…

I Do Not Love You Except Because I Love You

I do not love you except because I love you;

I go from loving to not loving you, From waiting to not waiting for you

My heart moves from cold to fire.

I love you only because it’s you the one I love;

I hate you deeply, and hating you

Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you

Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.

Maybe January light will consume

My heart with its cruel Ray, stealing my key to true calm.

In this part of the story

I am the one who Dies, the only one,

and I will die of love because I love you,

Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.

by: PABLO NERUDA

Wazzup?!

I miss blogging… As if?! nyahaha! i was sick so i missed friendster and all the time i was resting all i think of is what to blog! Addict! hehehe!

before anything else, thank you to all my friends and my not so friends (hihi!) who remembered me on my birthday. thank you to all those people who partied with me (yea,party people!), got drunk with me(slurppppp!), got wasted (?!) with me (nyehehe!), and wala lang with me! Thank you, thank you talaga…

Tapos, wanna say sorry to those who were asking for a copy of the old poems and articles posted here in my blog. I also dont have copy. I wasnt thinking right when i deleted them. sorry naman! I wanted to delete my friendster account pa nga eh! im glad i didnt! sobrang windang lang that time. anyway, i promise to make new poems and will post something here as often as i can. good thing i have access to net even at work. Ayt?

what else? what’s new? well, nothing much. will keep you posted naman pag meron eh.

till next time! ciao!

Loving Yourself

In life, we may find it easy to allow ourselves to love and accept multitudes of other people, but when it comes to loving ourselves we're not as forgiving. In fact, we can be quite relentless in our pursuit of perfection. So, how then do you learn to put aside all the shoulds and should nots we face, and really begin a love affair with yourself?

The first step is to realize that you are somebody. You're a friend, someone's daughter or son, possibly a lover, an employee or employer, or maybe even someone's spouse. No matter how your role changes, you're still somebody. Nothing will ever change that.

The next step is to take time out to actually love yourself. In romantic relationships it is often said that true love is shown through actions, not words. Learn to apply this to yourself with the following ideas, and you'll be on the road to a lifetime romance, with yourself!

Dear Me...
Write a love letter to yourself. In the letter describe what you really like about you, and what you'd like to improve about yourself. Keep it in a special place you can refer to when needed.

Scheduling Time
Make appointments with yourself to do artistic or spiritually uplifting activities. For example, you might enjoy going on a picnic at the park, taking a tour through an art museum, or taking a walk in a secluded area.

The Finer Things In Life
Enjoy the finer things in life! Eat on your "good" dishes. Enjoy a candlelit meal. Listen to a favorite CD over champagne. Wear your favorite clothes. Treat yourself to unexpected present.

Enlighten Yourself
Try learning an enlightening hobby such as yoga or meditation.

Freedom Of Yourself
Give yourself freedom to make mistakes. Instead of questioning why you are doing, or may have done, something, just accept that you did it. Know inside that you'll handle it when you're ready to, and that it is okay to do just that.

Forgiveness
Forgive yourself for something in your past. Write a letter of apology that includes everything you might have done. Seal it in an envelope, and keep it somewhere private.

Day-By-Day
Live life day-by-day. Try not to worry about what will, or will not happen in the future. Or, what may, or may not have happened in your past. All things are created in the present. Remember, your future and your past are created by what you are doing right now this very moment.