Massive Earthquake Strikes Chile

My heart goes out to all those impacted by the earthquake and I send my best wishes and prayers to my readers in Chile and all those suffering from the devastation in Chile and facing the tsunami threat around the Pacific, including all my readers in eastern Australia.

I am a work in progress

Lubos man akong nasaktan sa mga desisyong aking pinanindigan, ngayo’y itinuturing ko na lamang isang hampas sa ulo ang nangyaring kabalintunaan. Isang hampas na talaga namang nagpagitla sa akin ng ilang buwan. Binulag ng pagmamahal na dapat ay sa aking sarili muna’y pinaramdam. Ako’y tatayo mula sa pagkalugmok. Mamahalin ang sarili at kakalimutan ang pag-ibig na minsa’y muntik ng lamunin ang aking kahinaan. Ako’y mamamahinga, puso ko’y ikukubli sa mapagsamantala. Kaya ko na ‘to, gising na sa wakas ang minsa’y isang loka-loka.

This time I’m not only moving on, this time I’ll keep moving forward, because I have to, because I had enough, because I am torn, because I am hurt, because I loved, because I am whole, because I fight for myself, because I seek for what’s right, because I deserve better, because I should be taken care of, because I am not a trash, because I should let go and set free of one thing that has been unyielding me. There’s nothing wrong in being bitter, remember, medicines usually taste bitter but it makes you well. Maraming lumipas na magagandang pagkakataon ang aking naitapon, nai-kahon at hindi na iyon maibabalik pang muli ng panahon. Sarili ko muna’y gugugulin ng pansin, ibabalik tiwala’t respeto sa sarili na nawala sa akin. Walang oras na ‘di pagyayamanin, lahat ng makapagpapabuti’y akin ng yayakapin. I don’t deserve blab-mouthing and big talking. I’m über-exhausted, for such events that became a cycle – and I need to break-free.

I just have to remind myself that I’m not half waiting to be made whole.

Wag ka ng mag-isip at bigyan ng dahilan ang isip mo para isipin siya. Masaya ang buhay, kaya mabuhay ka ng masaya.

More Lessons Learned

I’ve learned that when you love never stick only to what your heart feels. Remember that sometimes using your brain is a necessity. Next, never use your eyes to cry for the person who hurt you. Instead, use it to search for the right one. Lastly, don’t be scared breaking up. Keeping a relationship without love is just a waste of time. Take note: love the one who will fight for you and bravely face each and every consequence. Someone whom you can call “MINE” rather than “IDEAL”.

People get hurt with love because they try to deny its existence or its absence. Don’t make things complicated for it’s hard to find an answer. If you love someone, build up a relationship, wherein you’ll both find true happiness. If you know love has faded, just let go and don’t dream as if there’s still chance for love to come back. Because the more you deny what’s inside your heart, the more pain you are trying to catch.

Bakit kaya pagdating sa love yung kabaligtaran mo ang napupunta sa’yo? Bakit yung matino napupunta sa bad? Bakit yung palaging bigo napupunta sa naglalaro? Bakit yung mabait napupunta sa pasaway? Kaya pala ganun kasi, pag ibinigay sa’yo ang katulad mo, hindi ka matututo magbago para sa isang tao. Hindi mo malalaman ang mali sa’yo. At pag walang nagbago sa’yo, hindi mo malalaman kung nagmahal ka nga ng totoo.

We must learn to trust the perfect time so that we may discover that all the pain found in waiting has a magnificent and awesome purpose. In God’s time I know I’ll fall in love for the right person. When that time comes, love will be worth the wait, the tears and the pain. Then I’ll forget that I ever waited because somewhere between heartaches and waiting, comes another chance to be found by someone who can show me that I don’t deserve to be just an option but the only choice.

Food Thoughts

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